Sunday, May 11, 2008

A New Perspective


So here you see me, my crazy roommate, and of course my class. We're walking down the streets of Chicago on our way to the next stop of the field trip, a boat tour of the river and lake. My kids are obviously taking in as much as they can as we sprint down the sidewalk, trying not to run over other people passing by. For so many of my kids, I know this is a new experience, providing them with a new perspective. And I feel that I too have received a new perspective.
I'm almost done! I'm so close to being done with my first year of teaching. As it's coming to a close, I look back, and I see that behind me are memories, learning experiences, and people I will never forget. This year has not only been one of the most challenging, but one of the most rewarding years as well. I know that I can feel proud that I have done something that I formerly had feared. I challenged myself, and came out alright in the end. This is not to say that there won't be more challenges this next year. The Lord knows there will be! What with the portfolio I get to do, a new class to get to know, and come alongside to help them reach the goals laid out before them as sixth graders, not to mention the relationships outside of the classroom that will need to be continually nurtured!
This upcoming year I hope to see myself establishing myself more as a teacher. I hope to see friendships grow and new ones take root. I hope that I will know where to go from this point next year and that God will do a number on my heart. Some big things are going to happen this next year, that is for certain, but what I cannot say. I can only let my imagination wander through the various possibilities that my mind allows, and I keep my heart open to what God's imagination has already plotted out for my life.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

The Future: It's always there.

There's always a future, something that's going to happen next for everyone. Last year after graduating from Grace, I found myself wondering what my future looked like, and I wanted very concrete answers. I wanted to know where I would be teaching, where I would be living, and who I would meet along the way. Thankfully, those things have all come true for me, and now I find myself wondering about a more abstract future, one that causes me to ask the all too predictable question of "where do you see yourself in five years?"

Do I see myself teaching at the same school? Do I see myself teaching the same grade? Do I see myself teaching forever? What type of an education do I want for myself? MA? PHD? Do I want to teach teachers? What kind of a life do I really want for myself? How do I go about achieving that? It's a very overwhelming feeling, to ask all of the questions, especially knowing that I have very few answers.

This I do know, that wherever I find myself in the future, I want to be near those who care. Those who care about me, and those I care about. I think about my family, and wonder if I should go back to Ohio. I think about my independence, and how much I enjoy where I am at, and I think about what God's plan are for my life and if He'll ever let me know what He has in store. The future is always there, it's true, and with the future comes the excitement, fear, and faith everyone needs to live their lives. I hope mine is strong enough.

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A small town midwest educator, trying to figure out the mysteries of life through the help of the students who enter the door of my classroom and heart.

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